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i love my skinny capp!! wakes me up every day….

recently uploaded my poser type photos - as the canto saying goes: zi bou kei tuen ( showing your own faults ) so pls do not comment on it if it doesn’t look as nice as YOU expected…

when i’m really tired of them i WILL take them away… (><)

my hair’s been dead straight up till now, so therefore pls do forgive my pretentious, presposterous poses…i totally dig my curls, as do many patients of mine (thank you all, btw!) i want to leave as many pics of them as i (still) can………..

2 months, and still going!!!

I’ve always wanted to ‘pose’ for the camera, u know, those studio photos when u turn 21, get a boyfriend/fiance/husband, graduate, turn 18 (if u r rich enough) etc. but i never had the money , nor the luck to have someone gift me with a ‘free’ session (sob sob) ugh! my graduation one was - line up, get ur gown, line up, no posing, smile and click. thats it.

so, having chanced upon a mac POWERbook (well, i have to admit, it has POWER) haha * snigger* i absolutely HAD to try POSE-ing for the CAMERA…and lo & behold I have managed to take some pretty good POSER pics … see my pics if u want to comment * sniggers again *

oh well, kesian the poor me, having need to " zhi bou kei duin" (literally translating to exposing your own weaknessessssssss) via a mac with minimal makeup, haggardlooking post-8-hour-stressful-pharmacy-job face, PLUS a record time to ’smile for the camera’ and ’snap’ AND ’save’ discreetly before the owner of that POWERbook (can’t get enough of it’s POWER-ness) comes back and laughs his pants off / sniggers at me / raise his eyebrows ( all of them which would cause a slight ensuing discomfort not to mention extreme embarassment….)

oh well. didn’t turn out too bad huh, or i wudnt have put it on this site.

okay well…limited time only.

if we could look at the ‘ifs’ in our lives, (would we be happier?)
if we could experience the ‘ifs’ we wanted to, (is that worthwhile?)

to know something that had happened, to judge what to do about it now,
to wonder what would have been, to continue what has been decided

just a circle. never ends.

Max Evans - roswell - the THE guy - THE GUY !! ;p

I’ve just discovered another author, which I would commend as she is on par with my all time fav Anne Rice - Laurell K Hamilton

Anne first guided me to the world of sensual, morality ridden vamps in her vamp series.
(amongst her other books - cry to heaven is a brilliant read about Venetian eunuchs for opera;
The Witching hour + Lasher series about modern witches and a long lost species;
Feast of all Saints about one French guy’s self-searching;
The mummy (title is self explanatory); Servant of the bones is about a spirit trapped in his own bones..

for those of u who are interested in 5star erotica (the S&M kind..) voila! writing as Ann Rampling/ J A Roulequare..there is a highly disturbing but sensual tale of Sleeping Beauty, how she was awakened to become a sex slave, then trained to be an A star BDSM slave, then finally realising that she cannot help it but become a BDSM queen/slave. err…nuff said.

I’ve all her books (yes, i am a nerd) except the erotica range (again, those who know me: self explanatory..but i’ve read them obviously through ingenious ways) If anyone wants to borrow..*sic*

Now when I was wandering in Melb Uni’s Rowden White Library I happened to chance across this Laurel K Hamilton’s Vampire hunter series. Her ‘heroine’ is a Ms. Anita Blake, skills being animator (raises zombies fr graves), vampire excecutioner,and also a powerful necromancer i.e. controls the dead like there’s no tomorrow.

Her vamps are essantially similar to Anne’s vamps i.e. sensual (lusty!) and beautiful. After hundreds/thousand years of training..wouldn’t one perfect the art of seduction and trickery? well..
but Laurell takes it to another level..she dabbles in the world of shapeshifters (read: were-wolves, were-hyenas, were-rats, were-leopards, were..etc), ancient creatures e.g. naga @dragon @serpentine creature of the Indian culture, and her world is filled with vampires with legal status, lycantropes married with humans, etc weird stuff plus the occasional romance btw Anita + a werewolf + a few vampires + a wereleopard +humans hahaha… (yes, it is a sexual menage de trois)

anyway, point is ..it brought me to a fantasy ridden high which i have not experienced since Anne’s books…so..its a good read..recommended MA18+ though..*wink*

comments if anyone is interested in what i’ve just babbled about

i will think of each and every single person who are having exams / going for exams / scared of exams…
I will not suffer alone…!!!

har har har *choke* har..

(hums tune from twillight zone~)

funny how u think each exam is harder than the last…i think it’s more like, each exam is harder to study FOR than the last..

cos i slack ;p

When you are suffering, think of someone else who is, at that moment, suffering more than u.

someone dear told me this long ago. I’d never forgotten it.

*facts of my life*

Jenn

When you are suffering, think of someone else who is, at that moment, suffering more than u.

someone dear told me this long ago. I’d never forgotten it.

*facts of my life*

Jenn

Who are we in this world? What awaits us? What will happen to me if i do this, if i do that? Why am i suffering now? Why is he/she/they luckier than i am? Why is he/she/they unluckier OR as unlucky as i am? Will i go to heaven, to hell, or roam in a spiritless world?

everybody asks so many questions, but the most important question to be answered, at least for me is..

Why not think about what i should do at this moment?

that would answer everything, wouldn’t it?

jenn

Bleah~~~ i do wonder how so many ppl have time to actually sit there, think bout what to say, AND type it out daily. well, to join the crowd, or not.

Well, then..let’s start by self-proclaiming my own non-existence in this life - i do admit always disappearing for months at a time, never wishing my friends happy birthday (if u read this, u know who u ppl are!) and also, having the knack to not reply/continue emails (forward and back) until i remember it when i am free. Which is technically rude. So, I do apologise and i know most of u do that too but yeah, doesn;t make it any better.

One of the most important ideas i want to share with today …-gosh this sounds like those compositions that i used to write in primary school - is that, aim high, do well, and stop hankering after what u weren’t given/worked for. I’d always thought that i am good in some things, but growing up and meeting more ppl can inevitably change that…u learn while u live -another excuse to respect your parents -
for all youngsters and teens…the best thing if u wanna be aussie, or american or european wannabes…is to work hard and get there. Spend some time there and see if u really like it.
For me, being in a foreign country has long ceased it’s wonders. Waking up to realities like, fighting for a job with undercurrents of racism, non-equity..those take up more of my life than ever!
I guess some ppl have a lot of good karma..their life is essantially cream cheese spread by their parents, and they are able to ‘enjoy’ life more than some others. Who would not hanker after an evening of good food, cheese and red wine (assuming u are not hypertensive) rather than house brand bread AND butter from the supermarket?!